well..i keep putting this off. ive been busy with everything. my parents are right..i need a break. so yea im staying home for a couple weekends...but you can come and visit if u want! im just not going anywhere so yea..carol has moved *tear* im going to miss that house..we had so many hilarious and not so good times. im so happy ive had her as a friend for 4 years now! but ill still see her cus she hasnt moved schools! yipee! so friday i went to the movies. guido took me and melisa home. hes a funny guy..lol then brent came over. me and brent USED to be friends..but since ive changed he acts rude to me. i suppose hes not good with change. o well i have the right to change. we went to the drive-ins. it wasnt fun for me. brent insulted me..and usually i dont care about what others think..but i did. he said i was fake. ahhh.. ive just changed! wow. everyone does. its not like i have changed into a bad person. i like so far what ive become and what i found about myself. i have things i need to change...and its hard..but im working. ppl just need to realize what i am is not to be 'cool'. it is to make me happy. i care less to fit in. i may have alot of friends..but its not what kind of music i listen to, my clothes or how i look in general. its my personality. so brent i dont hate you, i just wish you'd understand. and you may some day. melisa and i started to fight..but she apologized. i did make a mistake..but she didnt mean to make it to be such a big deal. so its ok. then greg showed up and i hooked mel and greg up! so congrats guys! wish you happiness. yesterday i was at brr's. we played baseball with dj. im not a active person anymore. i use to be such a great runner. maybe ill get back into it this summer. lol wana hear something funny? i was sitting on the lawn and brr's lil brother came running on me and just kidding around and then his lil fat mean friend..got on me and started slapping my ass! he was getting all perverted. i was freaked out and jumped and ran from him. and he followed but i was save by brr. haha that funny right? idk if u dont think so. cus i do. i just got finished cleaning my room and it got so hot in there. i have lots to do today...but i need some motivation to do it. lol im working on a new song! and a poem for carol. for now im gone. later