wow. its been awhile. i havent been good. my pap..well he has lung cancer.. and may die...its not really good. i dont know what to do. AH! and i was on these pills..and to make a story short...it wasnt working. and i got way more paranoid than ever!!!! i thought i was dead. i didnt feel like myself. but i am better. but not quite what i use to be. ive matured. i had three panic attacks... in a week. one was in a ROSS store fitting room. it was terrible i also have sleeping problems....and sometime im not awake...but i tihnk i am...but im still dreamy...its scarey... hm... wel i talked to an old friend today. i was glad that we talked. i miss school actually... but keep that off the record. later