ahh..well today im suppose to ask mommy if i can go to charles..but shes is in a really bad mood..so i dont know how to ask. i really want to hang out! damn it. i wish he didnt live so far..but o well. i still like him :). my brothers are being really annoying too today. i dont see why they cant grow up. hopefully they will leave for the day. im so tired. im not awake at all. im really slow and i jsut dont feel here. its another bad day..i think. unles i can go to charles..then it shall be a good day! but i dont know if my parents are going to let me. they always have a problem with me leaving the house..but not my brothers. i guess thats just life. but if i dont see charles..soon..im afraid he'll somewhat give up hope to see me..and maybe not be interested. its going to be hard for a long distance relationship. but hes only 45 minutes away. (i think) but you know how parents are..they wont drive ya just anywhere. i jsut hope he doesnt let the distance come in the way. i dont think he will. but i have been wrong b/4 on assuming. ta-ta