yup, so that means they stick out like a sore thumb. im upset. really upset. EXTREMEMLY upset. i feel like i have so many damn flaws, that how could any love me? or be a friend of mine? i dont know why but i feel everyone hates me. or secretly tells my other friends things beside me b/c...im not a good friend. i feel like an awful person. and now my best friend...well shes holding some secret in. inwhich i think i know it but id like her to tell me b/4 me assuming. she wont tell me, but has told a few other friends. friends that shes only been friends with for a year or 2. but now, she didnt tell me. her best friend of 5 years. because...im annnoying? im judgemental? im make big scenes? im not trustworthy? when did i become such a horrible person that i didnt even notice such big flaws. do i deserve to be treated like this? or not? am i taking this all too personal? or not? i dont know. but i am upset, and would like to know what she is holding back from me. i told her that when shes ready she'll tell me. i know that would be me being a good friend. but i really want to know. i have a feeling she will never tell me. if she doesnt tell me as the first person, the person she promised to tell, then she will never. later