today there is no sunshine i wish the sun would come out.. i feel lazy and gross...and i have nothing to do. melisa is going back out with ryan. she thinks shes backup..cus well he broke up with her to ask someone else out and they said no. so it blew up in his face..and now they are dateing again. but if he does anything like that again...ill run over him and his lil hick friend. i had some weird dreams.. last night i was suppose to go to a party.. but didnt go and i had a dream bout getting high and all fucked up...i woke up with the *TASTE* in my mouth. haha. made me want a bowl..but cant..gotta stay clean for now. god ive changed so much since last year. it quite scary. i look in the mirror and sometime scream for life. ahha. not that im extremely ugly.. one of my friends put some pics in her diary.. and it reminds me i ve been waiting to put my pics in... but ofcourse i am putting it off another day. and need to add my songs.. ahh..boredom i think i might go to sleep... im not sure..but im about to kill my brothers. god they are so mother fucking immature. i cant stand them. im the same age and yet..they fucking act alot younger than we are. and my mom is being a bitch. and ummm welll... i forgot what i was going to say. my memory is practically gone..i get my words screwed up and then after that i cant even remember what i said. sometime i want to hit my head off of something. lol. well ill probably write in here again since im so bbbbbbbbboooooooooooooorrrrrrrrrrrreeedddddd! ta-ta