today was not good. nothing terrible or bad really happened. i just didint like it. 1.i was tired 2.depressed 3.bitchy (which made me more upset b/c im never bitchy) 4.forgetful 5.seems like everyone doesnt care. and im mad cus i need to visit richy. but have no ride. and adison said adler prob wont take me and carin b/c hes pissed at richy. mom said she wont take me..so its up to shayne or carin. it was just a rainy boring day. inwhich i love rainy days but not this one. the bus ride home was hell. i hate it. i got a really bad headache and i tried not to bitch at anyone but i did. it was ineffective. so why bother? well this weekend i hope is good. ill see charles. whether we go to his house or mine. ill still have fun and be happy. as long as i see him my day will be fine. and maybe ill tell him my secret. but im unsure..and i dont know wat his secret is. wat if its bad? wat if its nothing like mine? ah well. just a lil paranoid/scared. but its ok. alright i think im going to go and talk to carol and regg. later