I'm saving this before i post. I just typed an hour and now i have to re-do all i just did. Well here's a basic jist of my life so far (not nearly what it was before): Parents: very overprotective, in comparison to other parents. Well here awhile ago i was talking to my friend who at the time i liked as a friend (who also happens to be a girl), only i liked her as a friend alot so i talked to her alot. So my dad assumes i have other intrests and tells me that if i want to talk yada yada yada wont joke around with me. So i took this stuff to heart(ignored him) for the time being. Then thanks to him i had this stupid notion that i could indeed do to have a love life. So i considered some people i like and why and such. Then it dawned on me I liked ... (we'll call her kate hehe) cuz she is really funny and nice and aparently i have at least a small chance and she is really cute. Like no makeup cute only im not sure if she wears makeup. It doesnt matter she's cute. But mostly i liked her for her spontanious personality, which i dont have. Jeez i dont think i've ever went off the subject like that before. I'm not all love struck right now either. So i went all crazy and .... talked to my dad! Agh stupid mistake well he said i can date and stuff, but now they know her name and make stupid jokes all the time (my parents). Then i was about to ask her out to a stupid play at school(which turned out to had been really good i heard) then my friend talked to me and he was all like i have inside sources that say she doesnt like you. I didnt believe him of course. But it pissed me off cuz he was all into my life and was taking credit for, hooking us up. I got realy mad and didnt ask her out that day and got pissy with my friend. Then i got home and looked at myself and realized i was acting like a complete idiot. And i felt like a gossipping school girl. So i didnt ask her out on account of feeling like an idiot and i dont like being things im not! (A gossiping school girl, I AM an idiot). So i continued to talk with kate everynight and fast forward a month later. ........ i just realized this has nothing to do wiht my parents yet......... So we did stuff together a littles, went to the library park and talked and such. So i finnaly asked her out kinda, in a lame way, not really, or so i learned later. But i was feeling happy like and stayed past dark which i wasnt supposed to do and i had to cross a busy street to get home and then i got in trouble by my mom then my dad then the both of them. I didnt get grounded or anything just a lecture adn i cant go to the park until my dad mentions it. Which he hasnt done for about 5 days. So i need to bring it up and get another lecture so i can go have fun with Kate again. But before that i went to a movie with her and her friends. My mom embarrased me by waiting outside for half a hour for the drivers name and then implying that me and Kate were going out. Which i dont get cuz i never really said anything of the such sinse like when i felt stupid a month ago. Then im pretty sure my mom felt guilty which i hope for. But it was worth it we watched the movie with a bunch of people who i didnt like or know. And i sat with Kate and she was fun the whole movie, and i didnt feel too tense. I especially enjoyed getting poked in the face with straws what fun and when she leaned her head on me, which i didnt know what to do about. Either way i got over the embarrasment of my mom but i still am not happy with her. But thats what you get for ever talkign to your parents. Now Kate is afraid of my parents so i cant really do anything with her, because my parents have to know every little detail of what im doing. So there goes any chance of having a good summer now that my hopes were set so high. All i want is to have a happy life with a girlfriend for at least a short time, but i'll have to go back to my ugly friends who are starting to bore and annoy me and are no fun to cuddle with. ...... not that i would know...... Ohh well wish me luck. Maybe i have hope for a happy life. And im not sure if i'll give this to , ... Kate.. probably not. but it i do buckle under pressure and give in, it was the truth serum! And i probably sound needy, winy, and school girlish for what i said so i hope i dont give it to her. Wish me luck again.