I don’t know what to think. This is a common occurance. But oh well I can still write about it. I had a great super good awesome Saturday night with my two best friends. We did some stupid stuff. Well we stayed outside all night and slept in a tent. And in the tent we played strip poker and somehow all lost and went running and galloping about the yard. If we would of got caught, my dad would of asked me if I was high again. Which by the way we weren’t, we don’t need that crap to have fun if you can’t see. But then in the morning all the strings were cut on the tent and my parents blamed me and my friends then eric my brother. I got kinda, oh pissed about that, like why would we cut our own tent the one we were sleeping in!?! And the strings were definitely cut not chewed or frayed, cut. It could have been anyone, or my brother or the dog, but I think that seems unlikely. Anyhow then later we played more four way halo and cleaned the car the fun way (getting wet), though we didn’t do a good job. Then later I was kinda happy and I got online and jacki was on, distracted as usual. So I tried to talk a lot and get to her to talk to me and she just got annoyed. I don’t know what to do. We used to have so much fun on the internet, but now she is always doing something else and it is just boring. So she kinda got mad and I went to sleep. Then later after my dad woke me up for dinner she was on and I said hi and “bling my brother bling bye” I think she was just mad at me, but I guess I could be wrong because you never know. I’ll trust her. Right now I really am tired and my heel is blistered from the meet on Friday and I have to run tomorrow, so my calfs are really tight and my heel hurts to step on it. I don’t forsee success tomorrow. But really anything with jacki in it is the thing that bothers me the most. I hope we can go back to talking all night online and having a ball. And I hope she doesn’t still feel guilty for turning down kyle, who we later told that I was going out with her. And he said sorry and I said something like I don’t hold it against you because we lied about it to you, how would you have known. Sigh I need sleep. Bye like