I'd like to be quiet but I'll need to be charismatic at this Cross-Country function to that I'll be going to in fifteen minutes. This function is the thing that ties up the season, and I'll have to give a short speech in front of lots of people and pass off the leaf. I don't look forward to it, but I don't dread it like I thought I would. I beat Brian Reel at State, and he made some excuse about how he couldn't breath because he drank too much water before the race. HEHE. Sore loser, I'll always hate him. Anyhow I got 28th and ran a 17:11 for the 5k. It was probably my best time this season, nothing super impressive, yet it was as good as I could do. I really did turn it up for state, and I was pretty happy with myself, at least contented, not devestated like I had been in years passed. Patton and everyone else said I really pushed it, and my dad kept talking about me out sprinting people at the end, when I really got outsprinted by one guy and then in that contest we passed another guy. The trip was boring, but I struggled alot to get along with Brian, and therefore it didn't suck greatly. But after that I was really REALLY not in a good mood. I went out with Matt and Jake and was having a good time at super Walmart until they tried to force me to buy something stupid. Then I just got angry and stayed that way. I tried yelling and being as apsolutely mean as I could like when I went to the park when Ryan was here, oops I didnt' write about that! Tonight I will. Anyhow I think I really did hurt Matt's feelings becuase he keeps trying to convince me that I was trying to hard to be mean that night. I should have just asked him to punch me that night, I would have cheered up on the spot, but instead Evan gave me a ride home. I don't know if Evan likes me or not, but he was very agreeable on the way home, and I thought for awhile "am I drunk?", but I hadn't had anything to drink. Sometimes I just feel that way. Anyhow, after state I didn't run for a day, then ran prety well that week, and now I'm hardly running. A break is in order. I had a quiet day or two at school, one of which I said nothing, and I had a ball. I'm going to continue to silence myself, I just realized how much I hate me talking. I've started painting and drawing more, and it's fun. I have to go. This may be pretty boring. Bye like