Friday night was fun. Yeah that's not enough to say. I went out with Jackie and her two friends. Who smoke, stuff. But I don't really like that, in fact it bothers me intensly. I really really REALLY don't want to come home smelling like marajana. And I'm afraid that my dad would know what it smells like. So if he did ask me or even question into it, I guess I'd rat out her friends. I mean I really really really want nothing to do with illegal drugs. Smoking, duh I'm not going to do (I run). And as far as drinking, nah for oh a long time. And, ... hm pretty much anything really really bad. That would include: fighting (well... except self defense), sex, drugs dur!, drinking, staying out past oneish without permision, really beating my brother(not that I really want to recently, wierd), or ... or... what else could I do that's really bad? ...arsen...or real big rebeling, minus yelling at my parents for fighting (at some point I'll crack and just scream, they really fight about stupid stuff). Okay where was I? So I was going over there to do whatever at jackie's friend Carrissa's. So I got a ride from my parents and they were all easy to deal with, for once. And they were going to the Bradelys so they dropped me off on the way, that also means it gives me lots of time. So I got to the door and they told me they were changing their mind (again) and wanted to go to a movie. And so I asked my parents politely if I could go, instead of staying there. And my dad just said not to get killed. Cool. And when I got inside Jackie explained to me very quickly why we were going to a movie. I got something like, we are going so Savanah could stay, she has crazy parents. ... Yeah it was really quick. And it was like two minutes of words, only I didn't understand a one. So at the theatre I learn we aren't actually going to a movie, because they didn't have money. So we instead waited for Carrissa's mom to leave, and went behind the theatre to the really dark hills. And we sat there for about an hour. That was fun, and we sat and talked about ... I don't know but I got kicked in the head for slapping Carrissa for saying something stupid, and I laughed some. And I kept leaning on Jackie even though she didn't want me to. And she tickled me just to show them how I did something when I got tickled, ... aparently it is pretty funny. But that took awhile, because I was wearing a coat and she had to fight me to get under it, but she snuck it in when I was distracted. Just for the record: I'm not ticklish. Okay. And what else, oh Carrissa had to smoke, and I was hoping that I wouldn't smell like smoke, because my dad could DEFINITLY pick up that smell. And my mom's dad smokes so she knows that smell all too well. After that for awhile some one had to pee, so we were going to colvers, but they wouldn't let us in for some reason. How mean. Then we were debating going to the theatre, but someone had the bright idea of going across the papio creek to some fast food resturaunts. We couldn't decide on which way to go so it took a long time. And me and Jackie lagged behind, and held hands and allll that goodddd stuff! And hugs! Me was happy. Finally we got to the bridge which was really tall (I'm slightly afraid of heights). So we crossed, a thing I'm sure I've done before, but can't remember where. Oh hehe, just so I don't sound really lame, it was an unfinished bridge, with not much width for crossing. Anyhow up until that point I was happy, but after that I got nervous thinking of what to tell my parents. But I got over it. And we got to walk in the dark up to Taco Bell. Walking around in the dark at night over a unfinished bridge I'd get in trouble for. I don't know why I was worried, I'd never get caught. But we ate, well Carrissa ate at Taco Bell and we watched. And then Jackie's dad picked us up, something I should have been nervous about, but wasn't. I wish she would tell her parents so we could do stuff more often, oh and not lie to them. But no for some reason. And I went home with Carrissa, and called my parents for a ride. Carrissa and I sat on the stairs outside and talked, I kinda like Carrissa. I'd almost consider dating her, only she smokes, and it wouldn't last. Plus I haven't been counting prospects recently, due to the fact that I have one that is super perfect. Yeah Jacki is the best, I don't care what others say. Anyhow my parents got there and I just jumped in and told them the truth of the story, minus the part about walkind around. I told them that we stayed in the theatre the whole time. But I got away with that I should chose my friends better and not pick people who lie to their parents. But I think my dad will cut me more slack, partly because I didn't lie to him, and partly because it was really just to make sure someone could stay. What was the other thing I was thinking. Oh clouded vision. I thought about this for awhile. I think that if you really really like someone, personality and how they look, that you can only see them as the most beutiful looking. This must have happened to me, because I think Jackie is the best out of all the girls. Before maybe my vison wasn't clouded and I could recognise beuty in other girls, but now it's just her. And she really is cute. And she has the prettiest face. But maybe she really is to me the best looking, and I would think that despite likeing her personality. I don't know and I guess I won't know will I? But she really does have a cute face. Today she was wearing a red sweater and did her hair really well, despite the pen mark where she parted it. hehe But actually that's cute. And in the halls she kept looking at me and smiling, but I had to hate it. I just wanted to grab her and squeeze her, but I couldn't she would push me away and there were people. But it was haunting me, everytime she looked at me that way. She was really, ... pretty. ... I shouldn't write like this, I kinda miss her now, just a little... er.. little. I was also thinking, the whole kill myself if I couldn't run, well I might not, maybe I found another purpose to life. ... bye like