I'm just quiet and deep thinking now, but why do my parents think I'm angry or something. I supose I seem grumpy sometimes, but I'm just tired, but not in the normal sense of the word, I just feel like running or mayeb not thinking. They are right here now (my parents)and I'm edgy talking about it in front of them about this stuff. I'm afraid that they will read it and think I meant for them to read it. Well what i do feel now is all alone. I wish i had someone to cuddle with, but all I have is stuffed animals. My cats won't stick with me. I just want to relax, but everyone keeps bothering me and I have to think agian. The not thinking thing isn't like before where I was stressed and so I blocked things out to keep from being worried or scared. I just want to have something, someone to make me happy. Why can't I have that now. Maybe I do have a problem now (I'm still not telling my dad about it), but I'd rather just be quiet now. Bye like. .....