I keep looking forward to saturdays when I can see Jackie. And for the last two I guess I got lucky and we got to do something. But this weekend we didn't and I don't think I'll be able to see her outside of school for, forever probably. I really really really miss her and wish we could do stuff together, but her parents suck, as far as I can tell. She asked her dad if she could come to my house and watch a movie, and he said no you don't need to go to boys houses. Is this the end? When do I ever get to see her, to get a hug for more than a second. To smile for more than a second. This is where lying gets me. It's my fault. I wish for a solution. One that I like too. I'm dissapointed, I want a hug. Bye like