I can't run until this storm is over. I had a fun weekend kinda boring to a point, but i ran around all day with kate on saturday. After awhile we wanted to just sit down so we sat in the tree, but it was too close to the road and she was afraid her parents would find her on the way home or something so we went to hide. We walked like ten minutes out of our way to hide behind a row of trees behind bakers and an apartment building. When we did this a guy in a truck looked at us like we were going to do something bad. Well we were running behind a building and I'm sure it didn't look just like we were going to sit and talk. Well we talked and such and ten minutes later i decided to leave, i have a problem with getting home on time. So we wasted too much time walking if you ask me, but im happy to be around her anyhow. She gave me a hug and such, which is quite a bit to me. I love to be hugged. I can still feel her arms around my back. Feels good. Then i ran home. Arg! Why does my dad have to yell about everything. "You made me mess up my ice bag",(a moment operation to fix). So he yells at my mom for it. Chances are that she was trying to clean the house while he sits on his duf and watches tv. Mom does everything around here! She works too. Then she watches the dog more than any of us. Sigh, i guess im not much of a help either and my dad does work full days with a still recovering ankle. But could he hold his temper for a minute. Every little thing he gets mad about, and nothing big. If he's mad over something important he discusses it. If its something like us losing the remote, (which i imagine he did) then he yells at us. Then he's always like sorry and makes a joke. Then if you dont walk away while you can he will start in on it again. Jeez i cant stand that. I REALLY need to run now! I hate when i get mad at night and im really mad and have to bottle it up. I'll pace around my room pretending to scream at various people. But i can't go for a run in the dark. Its too dangerous my parents would say, but i think that im doing more damage to myself by not just splitting for a half hour and risking the one in a million chance that I'm stupid enough to cross in front of a car and that it would hit me. I'm usually on the sidewalk what would a car do swerve to hit me. Not even drunks are dumb enough to drive on the sidewalk! .... Well some! But i would see that coming! Back to my weekend well after i got back her friend IM'ed me and wanted to know if i wanted to go over with her and screw around. Which would of been fun, but i kinda owed my other friend who i've known for ever to have him over and not ignore him for Kate again. So i called him and he wasnt there, "yeah home free," i thought, "now i can go have real fun!" Then he called back. ;( So i went to a movie with him, which wasn't bad but was boring enough that i ate enough candy to make me sick for a year. It was Troy, i might of liked it better if i was a chick because it showed Brad Pitts butt. Then even worse my dad told me we saw a R-rated movie, which i didn't realize so he warned me and now i have to tell him even more before i can go do stuff. Anyhows we stayed up late and stuff and i woke up with a really nice dream. Not sick, but sweet. My friend thought it was something sick about a girl, cuz i wouldnt tell him about it. Mostly i wouldnt tell because of who it was cuz she told me not to talk about her, so i didn't. Then we played tennis and lost the balls alot. But i got rid of him and then ate and went runnning which i talk about in my previous journal. But i got home and asked if i could tell jake my friend about kate and she got mad, i think so i felt guilty then she left. Then i made my mom mad because i went to take a shower when she was drying her permed hair or something and she had to rinse it in the sink because by the time i got out of the shower it would be too late. How was i supposed to know? Then i tried to burn something downstairs, with my dads help and the burner wasnt working and he got all mad. Everyone around me was getting mad. I felt bad and hated that im a horrible person. Then kate came on and was all normal so i figured she wasnt mad at me so i felt better again. Then I got ready for bed (a lenthy process with intese stretching and cleaning) and went to bed. What a anticlimactic ending!