It's been one crappy week so far. Saturday I learn I'll never get to see Jackie again for the rest of forever, well at this rate. Then monday I miss going to the track meet becuase I forgot my spikes and then learn that coach made a big speech about it. Tuesday we go to Walnut creek to run and my car breaks down and me and my dad are there until 830 when we finally tow it home, and it doesn't work as of now. Wensday we do nothing the whole time in school, and then we run this crazy workout and I don't feel so good. I looked forward to seeing Jackie after practice and a long hug. Boy am I dissapointed because its five thirty and she's long gone. Oh then I can't find a single phone so I have to walk home. Today I'm at my apex, i hope. I'm just agitated we waste so much time in track just wasted. I want to quit and run on my own. And I miss Jackie again. Oh I have to walk home in freezing rain. jackie called and my mom's all proud to say her name likes it something big. Expects me to smile. I feel prettys bad now. I want to bloody my knuckles, or run till im sick. I tried to call her but I couldnt get her. I'm sure she's off with Kyle, who she spends so much time with. But she never gets to even see me. NEver. And its like we don't even make an attempt to talk after school now. I hope she doesn't want me to go to the play. Maybe I'd go tomorrow, but I want some freaking sleep. I'm tired of acting like nothing's wrong. Bye like