I'm going to go fill a glass of Naked's Blue Machine and drink up. Nevermind I'll settle for some ice cream, my parents are downstairs. The stupid mood thing is missing liberated and lonely. Both words feel me right now. I'd feel good on a swing though. I guess music is close to that feeling. I want that contentness that you get when your driving on gravel roads. I miss having that. It doesn't matter which direction your going, just that your moving fast. I'm not moving in any direction. School- I have an odd scheduale which I generally like because I'm not in school much. I have four classes weekdays at my high school and two classes at ITT (I dropped one) for three hours wensday and thursday each week. I like and don't like ITT. The teachers are terribly unorganized, are real dorks, there are only really dorky people taking this computer academy, and reading about computers is the most boring reading ever. But I do like not going to school, I like the teachers for being dorks, I like that I'm learning something useful, and I like the dorky people in my classes. Jackie made me take European History with her, but then it turned out German was the same period, so she made me take it then ditched me. Being liberated isn't a good feeling, like when your outside the fence and you decide that you shouldn't have jumped it. My knee won't stop moving and I kind of feel like crying. I could force myself into it, by picturing myself sobbing, or I could pretend not to feel it and keep moving my knee. It could be the music I should change it to a more sexually elicit song. bye like