I wrecked my journal trying to make a picture come up. Stupid me. But I changed the colors after that and Hey I like pink and purple! But I think I worded my previous journal wrong majorly. I'm not sure how or why, but I don't like it. But still the question "What should I do if she loves me and I don't back?" Mostly that's my problem and no I'd never lie to her and say it to fill the silence, that's just not my style. Hehe I have no style. But I think I sounded to urgent and needy, which I am not, mostly. I get needy occasionally. "Worst December" It’s a big mistake 50 days, 3 months away I’d be laughing today But your voice on the phone gives me no reason Don’t take from me My heart is barely beating Don’t take from me I’m falling down All I want to do is lie in bed with you All I really ever need is you All I got to do is give up all I have to be with you It’s a different day 1500 miles away Why would you want to stay? So take a look around All I want to do is lie in bed with you All I really ever need is you All I got to do is give up all I have to be with you All I want to do is to be close to you All I want to do is to be next to you All I want is you to give up all we had to be I can’t remember why I’m here If you’d let me spend my life with you December’s gone It came and went All I really need is you I’m waiting here for you December’s gone It came and went I really like this song and this is how I feel now. If I could not think of her I would be perfectly happy, but there's just that something always draws one back. (ugh I fell lame, but no one important reads this) (no offense) I wish I could drive so we could go on a first date already(hehe). Would it be wrong to kiss her in the middle of our first date? Well that's only 128 days away from now. One hundred and ... twenty .. eight... Thats actually a long time to me. A long time to not see your girlfriend. But I can still see her, only it has to be outside in crappy weather all the time. You know what I don't wish I could drive, I wish there was some cool place to go hang out around here. Within walking distince, you know. bye like