I have a guitar thing where I'll probably have to play in front of people and be jovial from time to time where other people won't take notice of me and where I'll have no friends, but it'd be the only constructive thing I'll end up doing all day. Will I go? I kind of want to. I want to hear other people play. I don't want to be this upset when I get there. I want to go outside I really want to run. I feel selfish. I've already burnt too many bridges. I don't think I'll go. I'll go outside for now and play guitar there with no pressure. Bye like