I wrote a really crappy essay about a really crappy book today. I should be studying European History, but I'm not sure what to study and don't really care to. So I'll make a short bit in here to make sure this journal stays here. I obviously wrote in it recently enough to make sure it got transfered to the new site. Andy's life is changing by the moment here, I've began a process of breaking all ties. I'm going to isolate myself until I can figure out what it is I want out of life. Jackie very strongly dissaproves. She won't act on it becuase it seems she's dancing around me at this point in hopes that I'll find I really do love her. This won't happen, even if I did, at this point I want to be suffering anyhow. And I still don't know what love is. Bye like