I had an OKAY day. I did nothing in art but put together my sucky pop-up book. I then made up some stupid reason for my print thingy, we had to write a paragraph about it's meaning and stuff. And it had to be on love. What an overused subject! So i did mine on something noone will be able to translate or understand, they will just say "oh nice, cool" then leave. What it was, was a big ugly monster who is all surprised because a cat is rubbing against it's leg. It looks really stupid. But the print represents how i feel sometimes, I dont realze I'm not so bad and that people do like me. It made me sort of happy for a little bit to consider this philosophy, but i'm going back to beliveing that no one loves me. Anyhow after that i wrote a continuing note to kate and i just went on and on. Im sure it was boring to read, but everytime i write a note to her she feels compelled to write me back and i dont mind reading hers. But before school i was kind of boring and i think i bored her away. Poor me! Later i went to the pottery room with her during lunch and elliot who gave me crap earlier asked me if we were *looks at her then looks at me then looks at her*. Ahh! i can't say yes, because he would say something to her and im not sure if she considers us to be going out. I definitly dont want to feel stupid around her, everytime i do i feel really really bad because i only want a chance with her. But i lied to him and then tried to hint to her to what was going on, but she either didn't want to feel stupid too or didnt understand me. I feel like i want to address the issue but wont because i dont want to get denied or get "i dont want to deal with your parents," which she hints to. I understand that after certain incidents, but i'd like to actually go on a date sometime. HINT TO ME ITS OKAY TO ACTUALLY ASK YOU OUT! Not that that helps but now i feel better. Sigh i talk about this way too much, but its better than going on about my cat. Well the rest of my day was boring and i read and wrote various notes. And then history was over and i went to the Cross-country meeting and got a hug first, yeah!, and learned that while i wasnt listening i need to call someone or something. But i got numbers on paper so im good. Tomoro i get to go to recruit little peoples from the junior high, ... theres free pizza, i think. Ohh and i had a really good run today, i went and ran about 7 miles fairly fast. Fun fun fun! And i got home and stretched and stuff you dont care about. Well i aught to go to bed, but i won't. School is almost out!!!!! A day and a half!! bye like