My body feels good now. I got back into the habit of running to the hurtingness. I feel so much better stiff and sore. Well school has been good. Me and Jacki learned that we can go into the sculpture room to "work on our sculptures". Even though we do. But that's a chance to get a hug that isn't hug and run off like crazy. Well not me, her. But Mr. Danniels was there today and so I didn't get a long hug and kiss. So we ended up working on our sandblocks. Which actually I needed to do because I'm behind and want myne to look really good. It already does. I I I want to be able to hold her all the time, but it sucks that she won't A:tell her parents or B:let my parents see her at all. And I had such high hopes of being able to take her out when I turned sixteen (though I knew they were unrealistic) and that I could slowly convince her to tell so we could be together all the time. I was really depressed and upset on my birthday. And no matter how hard I try, I know she won't. Well she will only it will be in a long time, then starts the process of getting her parents to trust me and my parents to trust me. And that could take forever. I think that her family is diffrent from myne though, but its hard for me to imagine something diffrent. Maybe her parents aren't understanding and helpfull. Maybe her dad is just mean and fat. Maybe they do actually tell her sister that they like her least. I don't know. All I want to be able to sleep by her for one night, and have my arms around something warm and soft and cute. That's what I really want. I want to fall in love. ... bye like