Well this sucked I had to go for four days of camping with my mom and brother and two of my dad's friends and later my dad. Not that I dislike anyone other than my brother and my dad's friend's kid, but it sucked. Why did it suck, because of sand and rain for starters. I hate sand and it gets everywhere, try to sleep in a tent with sand. Sleeping in a tent is hard enough for me anyhow. Okay and rain, well it downpoured on us one night and then the next night it stormed. But that's not the worst, everyone seems to like to argue, and my mom kept asking me if I wanted to do something because I looked bored. But the apsolute worst part is ... missing kate. That was like four days! And I still haven't seen her. I'd be sitting and having a good time, maybe looking at or poking the fire and think "This would be even better if she was here" then bam she isn't and im sad. But I wasn't happy often so usually it would be like bam I'm more sad. Well when I got back I figured out that she can't see me, it was the fourth so I figured. Then I had my heart set on monday (today) and no. ...saddness. And now she is teasing me more saying maybe Thursday. I’ll tell you it better be tomorrow or I’m going to go kill her. I’m not sure how that would help. Maybe I should stab her with a pen. lol (that’s an inside joke) Anyhow now it is tomorrow (the site was down) and she apparently wants to go see a movie, only problem, I have no ride and don’t want to talk my parents into giving me one. And she won’t just go out and run around like we normally do. I’m getting frustrated, maybe I should just give up. After all this, and nearly what like three good dreams I just want to go see her. I can’t, but why does she have to make it so hard on me. I’m almost pissed. I should go run. Maybe that would help me calm my nerves. But I feel sick to my stomach and am having trouble running since camping because we ate all that greasy, salty, sticky food. Aparently I’m going to have to wait the five months until I can drive to see her. And by then I won’t care anymore. I will have given up. And even if I do get my liscence doesn’t mean that my stupid overprotective parents will let me do anything. My dad will probably have some stupid reason for why I’m not trustworthy to drive a car alone. I’m a fine driver and I have been a perfect kid for all my fucking life. LOOK WHERE IT GOT ME! *deep breath* I don’t usually curse, sorry. That’s it I’ll just stab out my eyes so that I can’t see her anyhow. That will make things better. Bye like!!!