I kinda won't say "I love you" to my girlfriend. It's not that I afraid of something (explain why one would be anyhow!?!) but I want to be sincere. I don't know love, I don't really love my parents. I don't fight with them but I just like them, same goes for jacki (not really kate, her name is jacki). But I like jacki more. Lots. But should I continue not saying those intimate words to be sincere because chances are it will take me a long long time. I just like to take things slowly. I definitly don't want to lie to her. But what if she says something like that and I can't respond with that. What would I do, I'd feel so guilty. She keeps saying " 'love me' " but I'm not sure if she really means it or if she is quoting a song or something like that. Plus I don't really know what love is. I'm pretty sure I loved my cat (one that died, check Feeling sorrow:entry). Is that wierd to like my cat better than my parents or real people? Am I taking the whole "Love" thing too seriously? But I also don't want to be like every other guy who will say it to get some. Ugh I hate that steriotype. I'm conmpletely the oposite, I plan to stay a virgin for a while. If I had a chance, and I talked to my friend jake about this, I wouldn't have sex with jacki. Most definitly, I think it would change things and make it much more serious, plus I'd want to feel this "Love" first. He even asked me if she told me she would break up with me if I didn't (very very unlikely) I still wouldn't. But oops hehe kinda off subject. But what should I do about Love. I'm afraid that if I don't try I won't feel it anyhow, but I want to continue to be sincere to her. I also don't want to have her say it to me and lead into a big silence. So what do I do? Lie in a situation like that or tell her that I don't and when (or if) I do say it to her she will know I mean it? What is love anyhow? Can it be explained? Do I take this all too serious? Bye like !?!