Lonliness beats frustration. I hate loneliness, it has come to haunt me. I haven't a single good reason to be lonely but there I was staring at myself in a mirror for thirty minutes telling myself I hate me. I don't know, what fixes this. Having a girlfriend doesn't fix it. Having friends never fixed it. Excercise delayed it. Distraction ignores it. I wasn't too far gone. I remember once I was listening to the white album (beatles) for the first time and the song "Ob La Di, Ob La Da" came on. I thought this song is amazing, I was soaring, I was happy for the first time I had been in 5 months. For real happy. It was the moment I truely got my happy back. And the lyrics have a line that says "Live goes on, Yeah!" And I thought, it is true: life goes on, life gets better. That's not only true when your sad and someone is trying to comfort you, it's true when your soaring with happy. It is truth. I came out of the kitchen when I thought of it. Life gets better. I'm lonely now, but life goes on, it gets better, I'll be happier tomorrow. And then I came here. Remember Andy Remember Bye like