Well that guy jacki turned down is still at it, I wonder if I'll have to beat the crap out of him. Because there is no doubt in my mind that I could, it's just that I wouldn't. I wish I was around when they were doing stuff so I could see if he is hitting on her or just being friendly. And I think he is being a asshole now, because of: Jacki said she doesn't like him that much anymore, and he ... pulled up her skirt in the mall a few days ago. Maybe I should kick his ass. But she said it was in jest, either way if he'd have done that in front of me I'd of clocked him. And not just a friedly knock that off. Like a get off the ground and I'll tell you what you did wrong hit. But I can't fight I dont want to get in trouble, plus if I did jacki would get mad at me. Maybe, if he IS being an asshole maybe she will ask me to do it for her. Anyhow, what I meant to write about. They went to a movie. ... I can't object or anything either. But I trust jacki, only we were suposed to do something today, and ... this is like the only time. She is spending time with him rather than me. That's what bothers me. And our "relationship" is kinda ... droll right now. It has been for awhile, we used to get along so well, but now it's only when I can kiss her. Does that count as a physical relationship? But we used to talk a bunch online and I'd be glued to my computer for hours and it was so much fun, but now we have nothing to say. I'm almost thinking if this goes on any longer I'll break up with her. I should delete that I don't want to hear that, or read it. I want to disapear like a imposiblity. It's been so long, what would life be like without her? I don't ... I'm stopping now. The more I say it the more the chance I'd have of doing it. And the whole kyle thing bothers me, it stresses me. I'd be a lot happier without it. I wish we could do stuff more often, that would help, but she can't think of excuses to tell her parents for going out. What did she tell them when she went with kyle!?! Maybe I should tell her she needs to tell her parents and risk her saying no. Or maybe I can't do anything about it. ...bye like...