If you have ever seen the film 'The Rules of Attraction' with Ian Somerhaulder and Shannon Sosammon, you will know what i mean when i say that i feel like i'm in edited motion. I'm talking to someone in reality and in edit i'm screaming my fucking head off right in their face. It's as if good days just have it in for me, like i've pissed them off somehow and now they won't come my way anymore. DEPRESSION, that's the name of this big FUCK-OFF thing stood in front of me! "TEARS STREAM DOWN YOUR FACE...WHEN YOU LOSE" I can't win this fight, this is round 4,5,6 who knows? All I know is that drugs don't work,not even the ones that are meant to control this sort of thing! And i'm sick of feeling sick! x