I have been punched in the face by karma. 'Choosing' Adam over Joe & Alex. Believing I could fall in love and getting sent a text message by him that was not meant for me that brought all my stupid girlish fantasies crashing down around my ego inflated head.
"I keep fucking myself up even more by going out with people I have no intention of staying with"
When I asked what that was about he said it was about his past relationships and not about me. He really does like me but his ex is trying to drag him down.
I told him I liked him enough to deal with it if he still wanted to be with me...no response yet. He obviously doesn't feel the same way.
I'm so fucking stupid.
I'm so fucking stupid.
I'm so FUCKING STUPID!
It's fucking painful & frustrating when you KNOW how happy you can make someone but they don't see it & they don't fight for it. He is gonna just chuck this to one side and I don't even get to fight my corner. This might sound ridiculous to you seen as how we've only been together like 2 weeks but who's to say how long you have to be with someone to feel strong about em? I'm not talkin' about love and talkin' about potential man! This had POTENTIAL!
Fuck him!
Granted I would say the best thing to do for right now is try to move on. If he comes back, if you feel that strongly about him let him speak his peace but keep your heart guarded he broke it once who's saying he won't do it again. I'm always here for you however you need me to be.
XXX
p.s looks like I need to buy some plane tickets and come kick some english ass for breaking your heart...=)* meant to make you smile*
as to that, a clear sky can do much to the imagination.
Just keep living, hun. That's all you can do, right?
I'm glad you're feeling better (illness-wise)
Take care, okay? Really. I really, really mean it.
calm yourself or i will twist your skinny fingers to stop them from typing angrily. madness is infectious and can spread to idle limbs. don't wallow in sorrow over things you have little to no control of. smile and smile often.