I slept with Gav last night. I don't think I wanted to but I was asleep and he woke me up by touching me and it just seemed easier to go with it. And again this morning, this time I sat up and said maybe we should stop? And he just pulled me back down. It was over quick both times. He wasn't very good. And I felt dirty. Watched The Basketball Diaries last night. Amazing film. Got the book online today too. Lost another pound. x