It started life as a tumor, deep inside my 13 year old brain. Manifesting itself in my mind, the kind that thrives on the thoughts that the darkest heart might find. Rewind... Back to the days of us two, me and you and your crew. Of course I was only 5 and Alex, he was still alive. When he died, I never cried cos I was too young to understand the reason for your best friend's demise was cos his mind had hit the bend full speed. Fast forward... To the day you left for pastures knew and told me how our family grew, from none to two. Brothers to be precise, I was happy. Couldn't see the wrong you'd done cos you were my idol you were the only friend I really knew. And then I hit high school. My thirteen your old mind back holding the crime, left wondering why everyday i would cry and you weren't there.