Today was shit! I felt fine, but then out of no where I felt horrible. I got really angry and frustrated and had to leave the shop floor before I flipped out at anyone and then I broke down all over Kris in the stockroom. It was messy. I hate it, I hate people seeing it happen. I cry and I shake and I can't even hold myself up. The crying starts quiet until I work myself up so hard that i'm sobbing and nearly screaming out my total loss of control. And then the panic attack stage! Well I got sent home after telling my mate/supervisor Fiona that I was verging on suicide. Now I can never show my face there again :/ Oh yeah, then i blew a bunch of my money on ebay on stuff i dont fucking need. this week i've bought 5 pairs of shoes :s It's all a fucking mess!