Trying to stay awake for as long as I can, in the vain hope that the next day will be made shorter by sleep. It's no way to live a life, at 21 when I'm meant to be young, I feel like I'm waiting for life to end not begin. And I can dress it up in poetic motion but it doesn't take the edge off the desperation. (EDIT) So my street is a big hill, and there are like 12 motorcycle shops around me, some weekends hundreds of bikers come on their bikes and just...well look at each others bikes i guess haha! Today I was just watching TV and I heard a bang and shriek and a van has ploughed into a guy on his bike and sent him 40ft down the road :( he was out cold and hen the ambulance came they got braces for his neck and back :( the bike got trapped underneath the van and set on fire. It was really bad, I hope that guy is ok. It also showed me how sick some people are, everyone had their phones out taking pics of it all. Fair enough you could say they were getting it as evidence in case there was a thing about it, but that's unlikely, considering the way some of them were smiling and nudging each other like "dude this is so cool" :( Bad Times