"If you wanna die then we better start living" Again nothing much has happened. I skipped a mock exam yesterday, emailed Chris my lecturer (who I have a crush on) and told him that I woke up really anxious and unprepared. He emailed back telling me it was ok and there was no need for me to feel that way because I am more than capable...he also told me on the sly that I'd done well on my essay :] I emailed back thanking him and STUPIDLY put an innocent little 'x' at the end aha! Ooops. Erm what else is there to tell you apart from how shit I feel lately? I'm totally fucked for money. FUCKED FUCKED FUCKED! I don't wanna go home, but I don't wanna stay here. Adam is being a prick. One minute he is SOOOO lovely and caring, worrying about me and getting jealous when I'm texting. The next he's ignoring my texts. He was meant to come see me tonight as I'm going home for 3 weeks and I've not seen him since Friday. He says his mum wants him to watch his kid brother so I text him at 11am saying I'd go home a day later and he could come friday night...nothing. To say he wants me back he's not exactly filling me confidence. GASH.GASH.GASH