I'm sorry. I know. I'm out of line. but I was just trying to numb myself a little bit. Imissyou. I don't know why you changed, or how, or when. but I don't like it. whatever it is I did, I'm sorry. I have to wonder if you heard something about me. It probably isn't true, I can tell you that right now. but it doesn't matter not as much as the fact that you would believe someone else without even asking me. I just wish I knew how something could go from so good to so bad so fast. that's the second time this has happened to me. the first time was this summer. and I could have seen that one coming if I wasn't so blind but this one I couldn't predict. I've had better friends treat me worse, but I never expected this from you. I miss the way you used to act, or at least, the way you would say hi when I passed you in the hallways. You and I have only been friends for 6 years. I wish I knew how it could change so fast. I know I haven't been perfect, so maybe I shouldn't be apologizing, becuase maybe it goes a little deeper, but what I'm trying to say is that who apologizes to who doesn't matter I just want to be your friend again I just want things to be the way they used to. I am just not ready to lose someone who has been such a big part of my life thus far... love, Kelly