FUCK. FUCK. FUCK.

I've only been single for FOUR DAYS now. And I'm learning, being single and drunk for me is a BAD COMBINATION.

I've never ONCE cheated on Sam. Sam is the ONLY person I've kissed, etc for a YEAR AND A HALF.

Last night, I had an entire four loko. And I definitely made out with Andrew. My editor-in-chief.

FUCK. FUCK. FUCK.

And Melvin just texted me about it. Then said "everyone kinda figured it out."

SOOOO glad I'm now going to be known as some kind of newsroom whore.

I'm just so confused right now. I'm single. But I'm totally still in love with Sam.

Sam told me that we would break up to see what it was like. And leave the possibility open in the Summer for us to get back together.

I wonder if he'll still want to.

I mean, no, I don't even know if I still want to. But I feel like I'm not being loyal at all. Yes, we're both "single." But seriously? The third night we've been broken up...?

And, I made out with my EDITOR. Whyyyy did I do that?

I'm a freshman. An assistant editor. He's the editor in chief. How is that going to look to people????

FUCKK. I DON'T WANT TO SEE HIM IN THE NEWSROOM TODAY. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK.

Note to self: don't make out with people you actually know. And have to see again.