k so Kelly went away for a week and now she has lots to write about. I left for Arizona for a week. I came back yesterday. I logged onto myspace and saw "new messages" wahoo :) So I clicked 'em. Ryan sent me a message telling me to call him immediately and gave me his number; telling me that something could absolutely not wait. I didn't have any idea what it was so I called him. And he told me that he had gotten fired. The idiot got fired for STEALING. Why would you fucking steal from your work? I've never understood that. How could anyone be so stupid? you're gonna get caught. we have security cameras, tard. And he didn't just try and steal little things; Ryan stole DVD players. He not only got fired but got arrested. I didn't like talking to him on the phone: he made it sound like we were fucking married. He was like "I just didn't want you to hear it from anyone else." A little overdramatic? And then he informed me that "I really like you, so I don't want this to change things between us." What? There were things between us? I thought I just ate with you on my breaks. And I thought I agreed to go to a waterpark with you and a bunch of your friends in July. I was not aware actually that there were things between us. Soooo now I'm ignoring his texts. yeah. He also asked me for the link for this diary hurr. And I said changed the subject quickly 'cause I've made that mistake before. I don't think you guys even realize; a total of 6 people I know have the link to this thing. I'm not sure any of them actually read it; but still... so just for the record, if you're one of those people it means I care about you. And the last time I gave someone this link that I didn't fully trust I changed it. Not that I changed the diary that much, but after I started writing I changed the way I wrote. I censored. I didn't give my full self anymore. I wrote in terms of how the person would read it. I would write something and go backspace 'cause I decided I didn't want them to read it. Writing without honesty is one of the greatest tragedies that I could succumb to. Not happening again. Also I have a new pet. His name is Jewel. After Jewel Bundren from Faulkner's As I Lay Dying. He's a cutie. By the way he's a cactus. :)