hey all. "She has sold her soul to a demon to preserve her youth..."-kagura from inuyasha from tonights episode i could write about so many things in this diary. what i did today, how im feeling today, asking y'all questions, and hey shoutouts are always fun. so what to write about tonight. well, there is always that nifty episode of inuyasha i just watched, or there is thanksgiving tommarow, or i could write about how my devotion went last sunday. but im too selective, that must be it, so i'm gonna write about how i feel today. i dont hate myself. but i hate certain things about myself. lets go into one in particular: im way too honest. now alot of people would say that people being honest is a good thing, but when that's all you are it causes troubles. since the whole world knows and its no use trying to keep people out of my business, i'll just talk about my fight with marina. that whole thing got started because i was way too honest. i told her that i was too pissed off at her always talking about how depressed she was. then she exploded at me, and i exploded back. we fought over aim for a while, some not nice things were said on both accounts, which brings us to everyone grilling me for what happened when it was none of thier business anyway. anyway everyone knows we are mad at eachother but no one knows what happened. now a bunch of people are accusing me of leaving those nasty comments on her diary, and even writing about her on the bathroom walls (until who actually did it fessed up). now let me say something: i am too honest. i left that comment because i was tired of her griping but i left it signed in. that is the key. these comments are anonamous, and they are NOT ME. people were grilling me for if i did it. after like ten minutes i finnally get them to shut up and then thay start grilling me for who did. well let me get this through your heads: I DO NOT KNOW WHO LEFT THOSE COMMENTS. everyone is asking me because they think that i hate marina and that all the people i hang with hate marina. this is not true. firstly, i said some really bad things to her (SHE KNEW IT WAS ME, IT WAS ON AIM, NOTHING ANONOMUS) bbecause alot of it was that i was really mad at my parents at the time. then she said some things to me just as bad, and i believed i used the exact words "I still care about you. I still want to be your freind." then she said something about the people caring about you that run you right into the ground, and that was that. i am not going around talking bad about her, and that is why when people ask me what happened i yell and sometimes kick them. i am so tired of it. yesterday i was talking online with ethan and he asked if i left the comments. i told him the truth-no. then he asked who did, i told the truth yet again, i did not know. then he told me that yes i did, and that i had to because i was in that "hate marina" group. i replied with "Oh so there is a hate marina clique now?" and he replied "yes and you are in it." and then asked me some more about who did it, asking some specific names, i said i didnt know. then i said "So we are the hate marina clique. because i thought we were the pathetic spazzes clique." then after he got tired of asking me for information i didnt know, he didnt sign off, but just stopped talking to me. he didnt believe and i know you didnt, ethan, so dont comment that you did. you stopped talking to me because i didnt know the answer to your question. i didnt, that is not my fault. while it is true that some of my freinds dont like amrina doesnt mean that they tell me every last detial of their freakin lives and tell me what kind of comments they write. because they dont. i dont know what happened, but it was not me. i am way too honest like that. i am upfront and tell the truth, so get used to it. i didnt do it. i dont know who did it. i thought those comments were as nasty as you thought them to be. that was one issue that needed to be addressed.