You know what's a great feeling? When someone makes you want to write. I haven't updated in a while, because I've been writing on my own. Like I've gotten home And been so happy And I've thought about writing in this diary, but I decided I wouldn't want anyone else reading it, because I wanted to write at my most honest So I thought about doing a private entry, but I decided that I didn't want that either I wanted that physical feeling of a ballpoint pen hitting the paper so I did and it's such an amazing feeling I got home about 12:30 two nights ago, took a shower, got in bed and took out a notebook. I looked for a pen, and I found a pencil. I put that down. I didn't like the way those feel while writing. This probably sounds so silly to everyone else. But it was so great I haven't felt like that in so long. I just wrote and wrote and wrote three full pages. and :) It was just for me. annnnnnnnnnnd subject change. I hung out with Jason the last two nights. I'm officially a bad kid. I met "African Chris." two nights ago I picked up Jason at about ten o clock we went to the park. Just hung out talked he's so cute! he has never been the romantic type, but if you could have heard him talking about Linda. I was like "How are things with you and Linda?" and he said, "I don't know...I don't usually talk about our relationship in those terms..." I said, "you asked me. I'm asking you." and he said, "Well that's fair...to make a long story short.... I've fallen for Linda." :) He was adorable talking about her. He smokes pot, but when he was talking about Linda, he said things like "I don't like when she drinks. I don't like when she smokes." He was all protective. And adorable. I'm quite happy for him. It's good for him to be in a steady relationship. He was suicidal two summers ago. Now I've never heard him so happy. And he told me good things about Flynn. :) I had my concerns about him, I'd heard he was a bit of a hound And he moved so fast physically (I'm quite sick, already, of having to tell him "No" or "too fast") But Jason told me that he's never heard him talk about a girl the way he talked about me And he told Jason that he's never felt this connected to a girl this fast. :) Jason also told me that Flynn normally has a bit of a facade, or personality that he puts on for girls I believed it He tried those "moves" on me before we got together, I replied like a smartass. I don't like those moves. They're impersonal and imply cockiness. So I pushed those away. He told Jason that he didn't need to try to be something else with me, that he could honestly be himself. and that felt good. He's currently in Vermont. These next 15 days are going to suck. He even said to me on Monday, "Now that I've found you, I hardly want to go..." I like making out as much as the next girl. But the other day when I was at Flynn's, After quite a bit of that, He started to play his guitar for me.. :) After a bit of that, I pushed his guitar to the side Kissed him softly on the lips a few times And he said "that was nice." His tone was very honest, appreciative, somewhat surprised and that's the kind I remember :) That was probably the best moment I have between us so far.