Well Jack's leaving. And I'm really sad. He's had such an influence on me, on the way I turned out. I am going to miss him. a lot. I guess there hasn't been one turning point But I believe and I listen and I'm not sure that I would without him. Maybe it's selfish, I mean, he has a full time job now and he's engaged but I just don't think the relationship can stay the same. It was embarrassing, I cried. And surprisingly, I was the only one I mean, I didn't expect Katya to cry, she hadn't been there that long and it's not as if I expected Michael to shed a tear but I was the only one I've always joked that Jack was the closest we'll ever get to god being on earth and no one has affirmed my faith that God is real more than Jack I don't know... I just don't want things to change no one likes change but I just don't wanna lose a friend because he was just so close to me and I just wanna stay on the path I don't want to veer off and become one of those people who Peter Meindez avoids like the plague I don't want to stop going to UMYF But I will if it starts sucking. UMYF is the most positive thing in my life I'll be pretty heartbroken if it goes downhill. I'm scared. He said he'll still be that big part of my life But I just don't know if I believe it I don't know if he can. This doesn't make sense to any of you and I know that So don't comment if you feel disinclined But I just want all changes in my life to be voluntary. kthxbye. ^junk. that cheered me up. from a really really fun time last year....