PLEASE NOTE: I'm not perfect. I'm sorry that I'll never be good enough for you. I'm also sorry it took me so long to see things clearly. It never even occured to me that maybe you just straightup never liked me. But then you were fucking good at lying. or at least pretending. I'm really not sure but I'm through waiting around and I'm through trying to be something I'm not and I'm through thinking your opinion even matters becuase the thing is, I know I have a long way to go, but that's not your job to judge that's between God and myself and you have no right. so I'm sorry that I've been faced with temptation, and I'm sorry that I have given in some of the time, but it's my life, & my life alone. you don't understand why I've done what I've done and you've never even tried so if you don't want to be friends anymore, that's your problem. I'm still the same person.