All my life I've always wanted to be pretty. I've never gotten the attention from boys I wanted Or from the right boys It's not like I'm sitting here asking to look like Kiera Knightly I don't have to be star quality pretty but I'd really like my face to have an elagence to it or have my hair have a little more volume or get rid of those damn bags under my eyes I am 5'7" and pretty thin. I think I'm going to go on America's Next Top Model when I'm 18. I don't even want to be a model but I want to prove to other people that I might have something pretty about me but here I am five seven which is like crazyshort for a model, actually I don't like my tummy. I don't fit in a small sports bra anymore you'd think that would make me happy My boobs are getting bigger. ha. I hate that I don't fit into the same sports bra anymore because I can't wear a medium I don't care what it is I can't wear a medium I can't I went to AE the other day and I tried on a small tube top and it didn't fit It made me look...fat. too tight and it killed me and the girls on ANTM all have these tiny bodies and these thinny thin arms and I don't feel like I could compete with that And they always talk about how a model's skin is like a blank canvas and I have huge bags and I have zits and I have scars and I don't have poise or grace So there. I'm too short I'm too fat and my skin sucks. I want to be pretty I want to go onto that show and win so I can feel pretty. I don't like feeling like this. so I just want to feel pretty yes I do I don't want to look like Fergie I just want to look pretty "tragically beautiful" Wicked. I've never truly felt beautiful and I'm ready to Maybe there's more to people than how they look. I want to believe that. But I don't think it matters.