i dont know if thats how i feel. i honestly dont know how i feel anymore. the plays over, thank god for that. but the weird thing is, is that i was in the theater picking up prgrams people left, and they turned out the lights. yea, i know, big deal, but it gave me the strangest feeling. relief, calm, quiet, it was awesome. kelly suprised me with 2 long stemmed roses after the show...i dont think he realizes how much i love that kind of stuff. a girl at my school, her dad died today. everyone in my school is so close, and hes gone. i didnt know him, but this is my second encounter w/death in 3 days and its not very fun...the lady i worked with, her obit, said she died at St. Anns...no....she died in her sleep...y can't they just say it? went into work to request off some days, and i saw her section of the calendar. they wouldnt let me tear it out. i wanted to, but they said "it might make people sad..."