i am not your ex girlfriend, i am not responsible for their actions in any way. i am not willing to treat you the way they did. i am not going to sit here and pay for thier mistakes. i AM willing however, to work with you and help you unbuild the concrete walls you have constructed, i am willing to help youe ease the pain, to help take away the sting of your scars. i am willing to wait with you until you are able to see me in the light that i deserve to be shown in. in my last entry, i talked about my hairdresser and how she mentioned b and i getting married. the next day, Jamie...that one guy some of you know about...some dont...a whole other story, lol...mentioned it as well. that makes 4 people. that scares me. i get to see him tonight. i get so excited about this time on wednesdays... maybe tonight will be the night that he'll finally open up to me..let me start to un-build those walls he so carefully put up. who knows...i DO know that Cort is coming into town this weekend and i cant wait to see her. we shall get crunk. that is all.