He dumped me on tuesday night...he really dumped me...i can't really believe it. it feels like theres this big gaping hole in my chest and i cant cheer up. im soooo lonely today i was driving and that alicia keys song came on and i completely lost it..while i was driving! I don't know what to do with myself. there's nothing to do. i sat at home with my mom last night and i'll probably end up sitting alone at home again tonight. i'm so absolutely pathetic...i can't eat...well i can eat, but i'm so damn stressed that i cna't hod any of it down...i can't sleep...i really can't function...what am i going to do with myself??? he just threw away 12 1/2 months of my life away...