so you know what pisses me off? people. people are really good at pissing me off. its now 3:25am and im pretty tipsy and im upset and i want to go home. im just tired i think. i hope. i cant go home though. im at tonys, and i cant drive right now. i dont like being grabbed and groped, i dont like being smothered. i dont like many things. im just a bad person all together i think. maybe. i dont know. im pretty angry right now and i dont really know why. this weekend has been pretty strange. kelly called me drunk and told me he loves me, the fish that he won me died, i figured out i dont want to teach preschoolers, thanks to my moms boyfriends kids. i really dont quite feel welcome here, even thought i know i am. does that make sense? i dont know why it made me so upset about kelly. maybe because i put so much of myself out there for hm and got rejected time and time again. we had many conversations about many things this weekend. sex, marriage, all kinds of stuff. all thats happened is people have gotten pissed at eachother and peoples feelings have gotten hurt. and i seriously cannot stand it. michelle and chris are sitting behind me fighting right now, even though chris says "wassup" because he hasnt updated in forever. hes just reverted to his lazy ways... i just dont really know why im so upset really. lately its just that my feelings get hurt really easy and im not sure why at all and people get mad at me for being upset. maybe i really am just a bitch and a bad person. but wouldnt you think that with the realization of this, i would feel better?? but no...that is not the case....i dont know..