i should be doing my papers and my power point presentation thats due tomorrow. but ive decided to update this. i guess things are good. i still miss my best friend. i mean, the whole situations kind of dumb, but oh well. maybe she'll change her mind someday. probbably not, but one must have some kind of hope. ive been real emotional lately. i was watching gymnastics on my break at work today, and this girl got a perfect 10, and her and her teammates were so happy and i got all choked up. maybe its because i miss being that happy. i miss my friends. rach comes home thursday!!!!!!!!!!!!! cant EFFING WAIT!!!! i still dont know what i want with life. well, i know i want to be a teacher, but i dont even know if ill be good at that. i mean, is that what makes me really happy? i like doing it, but is there a better feild for me? i just completely dropped my keyboard on my ankle. it hurt. yay wireless. boy suck. thats all there is to it. kelly and i have been hanging out a lot lately. i dont see myself dating him again. hes had me fall in love with him twice, and hes hurt me twice. i dont think i can handle that again. Beaner...is confusing. says he doesnt want a relationship, which i understand, he just got out of one, but he calls me all the time and all we do at work is flirt. then theres patrick, who scares me, because hes so sure of himself and the big thing is he has a daughter. now, this little girl is a little less than a year old. he hasnt seen her for nearly a year. he wants so badly to be involved in her life. but his exfiance is a psycho bitch and has blocked all contact. it breaks my heart. im tired. ugh. homework.