last night i went to a party at a coworkers house out in BFE. we got there did a couple shots and guess who shows up? Brian. it was common knowledge that the only reason he came was to check on me, because he knew i was going to get hammered. I started to cry for some reason so Robin and i ran across the street (literally) to the gas station for sprite. I calmed down by the time we go back, and for about half an hour Brian and i wouldnt really talk (we were already past the avoiding stage...its hard to avoid someone you work with) but we'd make and hold eye contact. eventually i ended up dancing and he came over and danced with me. The rest of the night we were inseperable, constantly talking, kissing, laughing, just having fun. so later on in the night he sits me down i guess and tells me that hes terrified because when we broke up he didnt feel the emotions toward me that he thought he should, and then he said it. he dropped the L-bomb. i know that earlier in the night we had many conversations in which i was crying and he just held me. i think that means that im hurting more than i thought. i just couldnt help it. and now hes telling me he loves me? heres whats going to happen. i will be going on a date tomorrow night, not with Brian. ill think about everything, and brian and i will definately talk, because if he wants me back, shits going to change. no ifs ands or buts about it. hes going to grovel at me feet for a bit. what do you guys think? ok plan? bad plan? im so confused. ------------------ somehow. i got burned last night. im told that i was supposedly on the pool table and got burned by robins cigarette when she tried to kiss me. we're a classy bunch.