its amazing that soon after relationship ends, that relief comes, and then minutes later, and now two weeks later, one can sit here and miss that person so terribly. obviously, i dumped brian. again. yet i am still so drawn to him, and he is so wrong for me. why is it that opposites attract, when the opposites are so extreme that you know it wont last forever? is this all that sex brings into a relationship? i refuse to talk to him, yet we text back and forth like its no bodys business. like yesterday, we started texting at 4pm, and ended at about 230 am. we "talk" more now than we did when we were together. he worries about me a lot as well now. like he though i was going to drink on friday, and told me to be careful...he checked in on me yesterday to make sure that i had sunscreen on and i wasnt getting burnt, and last night i went on a walk at 1am and he told me to be careful, because it was late. if the mid and the heart have opposing viewpoints, which is right? i love him. i have had a crush on him since i was 14 years old. i am crazy about him. yet he is all wrong for me. am i just a glutton for punishment? or see something in him that other people dont? our one year would be this 4th of july. its not the idea of a boyfriend that i miss. its him.