well i havent cheated on my diet really, but i havent exercized, so im not getting on the scale. thats the worst of my worries right now. i realized how angry i am at my mom for getting engaged. im mad at the world. i completely went off on brian today and it wasnt right. hes really angry at me. and he should be. ive apologized, not much else i can do. im such a bitch. everytime i think about my mom getting married, i get angry. im angry now. im jealous and bitter. shes my mom, and i dont know the family shes moved in with well. ive got 3 new brothers and sisters all of a sudden, and now i have to share. i know how wrong it is to feel this way, and im sure itd be different if i had a better relationship with my dad. but i dont. i have a horrible relationship with my dad. i dont know how not to get angry like this. i can just feel it well up inside of me, and words really cant explain it. i want my mom back. to myself. no one else. i have to get over this.