I'm so tired of being here Suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave 'Cause your presence still lingers here And it won't leave me alone These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears I held your hand through all of these years But you still have All of me You used to captivate me By your resonating life Now I'm bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts My once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away All the sanity in me These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone But though you're still with me I've been alone all along I hate him...my step dad...well...my ex step dad...i was so good to him...i was too compassionate for my own good...i wonder if he realized that even though he slapped me around so many countless times, i still foolishly loved him. he's the reason my mom and i were seperated for 5 years...he's the reason that i dont trust many people. he tore my family apart and doesnt even care...he is my lingering evil. ill probably carry it with me my entire life. i cant get rid of the nightmares or the dreams. nightmares or the reality of what happened, and dreams of what could have been. i love my dad and all he's done for me, but he cannot make up for the years i spent with that....that i dont know what to call him. the evil...the hate...the distrust... i want to trust people. maybe thats not a good thing though. that usually gets me into more trouble than it does me any good at all. this song makes me think about how i really did trust him and how i let my spirit get shattered over and over, like a mallet to a mirror. i lost countless tears and feelings and childhood memories because of this man...and i know he doesnt care... will i ever loose this feeling?? this feeling of eternal emptyness?? that i missed out on some of the best parts of my life because of one man's selfishness...what do u think?