i think its funny how a lot of guys are finding those "nice guy" essay things online, like at collegehumor, and then all like, yea im a nice guy. ive seen so many guys have this who are CLUELESS when it comes to girls and end up acting like an asshole. all guys think they are nice guys. all guys think they always get screwed over. all girls go through the same thing too, only we vocalize it more. that essay just pisses me off in general. most guys are nice. until you date them. and this goes for the girls too. once you date them, their bad qualities come out and you decide whether to accept them, or move on. i think girls are better at moving on, personally. and they think all girls do is completely bitch about girls????? im sorry, ive seen more diaries on here by guys and stuff bitching and moaning about how they cant meet a girl or anything. A. get out and meet them (aka party, club, SOCIALIZE) B. play a little hard to get for christ sake! we do NOT want to be fawned over, we do NOT want an octopus al l over all the time. C. dont act cool or anything around your friends. be you, the person that she, and your friends, know and respect... ok that ones done i hate how i feel right now. i shouldnt be mad at him. hes spending time with his friends. again. the same friends he sees everyday, every week. im sorry, but id like some alone time, honestly. i dont want to feel disposable or second best to his friends, granted, i know i am, as push comes to shove, hes second to mine. i want to feel special. i want to feel needed. i havent felt that in a relationship for a long time. i want to know that deep down he cares for me as much as i care for him. i want him to WANT to spend time with me. i dont want to feel this bitter, biting feeling down in the pit of my stomach. i know that he feels for me the way i do for him, i just need some proof. not proof, persay...but maybe...oooo whats the word....evidence? i dont know... im going to wallow in my own self pitty. lol.