he doesnt remember yelling at me, and seems sorry. we havent had time in the last few days to truly talk about it. i really dont know what im going to do with the relationship, i really dont want to do anything drastic over the holidays. i have a huge fear of being alone, and this relationship is closer to my heart than any other ive been in for a very long time. i wont try to justify his actions, but i understand why he was upset thursday. he still cries over his dad, and this friends father was close to him. Brians parents just got divorced, and his step dad, who raised him, moved across the country. not that any of that makes it ok for him to yell at me the way he did, but he was shocked when i told him what happened thursday night. i guess we'll wait and see. if it happens again, he'll be gone so fast his head will spin